Indifference

That friendship 

Was so beautiful in its intensity 

I thought it would last forever 

And yet, I worried it was too good to last 

Never have I cared so much about piecing together one's lore, one's story,

The way I wanted to know 

Everything about you 

Memorize every fact

And you, I suspect,

Rarely told anyone so much about yourself,

You trusted me, 

And now, I've wronged you,

With my childish outbursts,

My demands for attention, 

That filled you with confusion and dread 

Oh, it was your cold indifference, 

That moved me to such an extreme 

You may not understand how much indifference pains me 

It is ice-cold,

And I hate it more than anything 

But it's not your fault that you came off as indifferent,

You couldn't help the way you feel,

You couldn't help it

And I was so unkind to you

For something you couldn't control 

For two years, we were friends,

Talking endlessly, 

And the trust I earned from you was shattered in a day

And there were times when,

You weren't even indifferent 

You gave me your full attention 

In those rare moments you almost seemed 

Captivated by me 

Just for a fleeting time 

And now I'll never hear your jokes again 

The familiar way you teased me 

Now, I'll never see the mischievous sparkle of your eyes again