Even in the arms of my lover

Even in the arms of my lover,

I am melancholy,

I am hopelessly forlorn,

Oh, she sees the look of dread on my face,

My eyes wide with fear,

Has this sadness become a part of me now?

My love, she asks what's wrong

When she sees how disturbed I look

And I do not have the words to describe 

How I feel existential horror

Even in the arms of my lover 

The poets said

Love would bring endless joy

They gave me a false vision

And I realize this 

In the arms of my lover

For all I can do

Is worry that she does not love me

And believe her words are false

Yes, even when I'm in her arms

She asks me if everything is fine,

If it would be better if she left,

She offers to leave,

Ah yes, my love, perhaps it would

Be better if you left

For in my fantasies about you

In my dreams

Is the only place where I believe your words of love are true 

And in that romantic vision 

Is the only world where I feel truly loved 

You do not measure up to my expectations 

And that is why I can not be happy 

Even in the arms of my lover